5:42 AM, Paint The Walls Red
Thursday, June 11, 2009
Today was a comedy. I cut my finger and blood sprayed everywhere. It was like some horror movie. There were blood splashes on my arm, sink, tap and floor. Very dramatic. I didn't know how to stop the bleeding so I decided to call me dad and ask what to do...
"Hey, I cut myself while opening a can of dog food and my finger is bleeding on stop. What should I do?"
"Elevate your hand and use a bandage."
I realize my lack of first aid skills are sorely lacking. Next I had to tie a bandage on my bloodied finger. With one hand. So I tied it up really messily and badly and ended up with a finger TWICE THE NORMAL SIZE.
Then I realise... How the fuck am I going to finish my newswriting with a finger the size of the Eiffel Tower.
FUCK. MY. LIFE.
(It's not that bad after you get used to it. It's amazing how adaptive you can be when one finger is unavailable.)
1:19 AM, For All You Twits!
I think we all know where we belong...
11:39 PM, Overweight Karate Kid
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
Like an overweight karate
kid you could moonwalk over my heart
using candour as painkiller
tastes like vanilla to me
occasionally
someone please make go home, I'm
the worst at being alone
just tell me I ought to watch
INFOMERCIALS FOR LOVE
and buy all of their trust
saturdays have shown us I'm not
the world's most talkative guy
you say it's fine
but I can always try and answer
with amplified anger, and
then cry inside
someone please make go home, I'm
the worst at being alone
just tell me I ought to watch
INFOMERCIALS FOR LOVE
and buy all of their trust
6:57 AM, Motherlode
In midst of all the doom and gloom regarding a potentially uneventful, wasted two week vacation... I remember this...
It's quite a mess, but there's loads of old analog junk to play with. I am currently searching for an old flash unit to attach to my beloved FM2.
I am going to go finish up my roll of slide film as well a new roll of black and white film this holiday.
And on a completely unrelated note. I am out of money.
12:42 AM, This Is What I Want
For just one night.
7:44 AM, The Duel
Sunday, June 7, 2009
Do you want me to tell you something really subversive? Love is everything it's cracked up to be. That's why people are so cynical about it. . . . It really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don't risk everything, you risk even more.
- Erica Jong, How To Save Your Own Life
6:47 AM, Project Restoration
Saturday, June 6, 2009
In the midst of chaos... I find a vinyl player at my Grandma's place. So we took it home and decided to try and ressurect it. We need to get quite a few replacement parts, but nothing we can't find at Sim Lim Towers hahaha.
I actually wanted it because I thought it would make a good addition to my attic bedroom, which is currently in planning stage. My roof is on the verge of collapsing on my head, so my parents are thinking of rebuilding it and giving my brother, my dad and I a room of our own.
But... The LAST time my mum said we could have an attic bedroom... She didn't follow through with it. It most probably won't happen, but I can hope can't I?
Back to work...
2:17 AM, Life, The Universe and Everything
The novelty has worn off. My macbook is no longer shiny and white. I don't bother much about what I wear to school. Conflict? Nah I can't be arsed enough to get involved.
Go to school, get the job done and go home. If you've still got friends at the end of the day to go to Clarke Quay with, then that's a very welcome bonus.
All that is hard enough on it's own without... Distractions. But if I keep myself between the improbable and impossible, then just maybe I can hold this depression at bay long enough to get my job done.
I am not invincible, but I will damn well try for it.
"Carpe diem motherfucker!"
9:02 AM, Stickin' To The Floor
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Not one of you's got an ounce of style in yer
So now one of you's gonna have to stop!
Fucking hell I'll break your nose!
If they keep on pushing you around
Keep on steeping on your toes
I'll pick you up when you fall down
So now one of you's gonna have to stop!
Fucking hell I'll break your nose!
If they keep on pushing you around
Keep on steeping on your toes
I'll pick you up when you fall down
9:50 AM, Personal Coma
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Depression? Yes. I cope with that damn well. I don't go moping around and crying in bathrooms. It's the anger that I can never cope with. I may not scream and shout, but it eats away at me from the inside, tearing me up.
I solved this problem a while ago and once again some stray comment that probably didn't mean a thing has sent me down this dark path to destruction and doom. Following the White Rabbit into a black hole.
I need 20ccs of Apathy in an IV.